Tuesday, April 28, 2026

The goal of this blog is to publish a daily post as I embark on a journey of self-improvement and self-discovery.

I have always had a fascination with the Greek God, Apollo, thus this is my “temple.” He is a god of many domains: light, music and arts, healing, archery, prophecy, to name a few.

I am also passionate about music and art, and am a musician and writer. I also love the sun and water, though, addiction and mental health struggles have prevented from enjoying things like the beach in the way I did when I was young. My goal is to change that.

I’ve also always been the type of person who is drawn to doing many things. I think it’s a strength and a curse. But I’d like to explore a bit more in my hobbies and work-life and doing so under the “guidance” of Apollo, I think is quite geek-worthy. I might even take up archery again.

I know that the idea of emulating a Greek God is very geeky, but I think I’m okay with that at this point. Having a hero who isn’t human and fallible is kind of nice. I don’t have to worry about him getting canceled or one day meeting him and realizing he’s an a**.

I thought about posting this on TikTok, because these days, unfortunately, I watch a lot of TikTok. But I realized that I’d much rather have the space to explore things in longer forms, without looking at my face so much. So I’m going to try WordPress.

That being said, I have been kind of inspired by the #looksmaxxers (I know, I know) all over TikTok. Even though they are just immature kids trying to get laid, there is something kind of inspiring at their dedication and willingness to share every detail of their “ascension” process. I also think they are right about how much looks do, unfortunately, matter in our current culture. I know that I have noticed a big difference in how I’m treated depending on my current weight or clothes.

So, part of this journey will be losing weight, working out, and optimizing my diet. But that’s not everything. I also want to learn more about the world and myself and explore as well as create more art. So I guess you could call me a #bodymindsoulmaxxer if you’d like.

Ultimately I’m going to use this blog to post every morning about my plans for the day and hopefully keep me accountable. I will try to be very detailed and specific, because why not? Maybe someone else is going through a similar situation and they might benefit from what I’m doing. I might also post my art if there’s interest.

Here are some of the bad habits I’m trying to change:

• Drinking
• Smoking
• Junk food
• Being broke
• Being lonely

Drinking has been a big struggle for me in the past year. I’ve used it as a way to manage my mental health and I’m hoping to change that. It has also caused me to gain weight, which has been a struggle for me ever since I was ingratiated into the lovely arena of psychiatry. I’m currently six feet tall weighing about 210 lbs. (at my heaviest I was 230 lbs).

I know, once again, this is very geeky—or possibly just ridiculous—but I’d like to lose weight and develop my physique in the style of Apollo: long hair, sun-kissed skin, lean, and strong. (Yes, I’m bisexual)

But aside from simply how I look, I’d like to do some other things as well.

Here are some positive habits I’d like to explore (or keep doing):

• Find work that sustains me and I can do with my mental health
• Travel more
• Start a band again
• Keep Working out
• Keep Hiking with my dog
• Find a “forever diet” – something that is healthy and sustainable that I can scale up or down depending on my income
• Keep writing fiction, poetry, and music (I’d really love to publish a novel)
• Explore who I am and question the ideas I’ve lived with until now
• Become a morning person

Seeing this all written down, it doesn’t seem as impossible as I’d thought. I think the most important thing is not losing momentum or hope that making these changes will be worthwhile.

With all that being said, here are some of my goals for today:

• Stay sober
• Take my dog on a hike
• Write 500-1,000 words on my novel
• Read about finance
• Do a short calisthenics workout
• Eat under 1800 calories
• Get to sleep around 9 pm

So, here goes.